Graduation fallout....

I arrived back from my trek a couple of days early so that I could assess the internet situation so that I could do my graduation interview via Skype.  I thought i had it all sussed out, tested it a couple of times, had a quiet place although a bit claustrophobic, so i spent the whole day just waiting for time to pass.

When it was nearly time, i was getting myself ready, making sure the setting was right.  I could see that the graduation panel were online and so i sent them a message saying that I was ready when they were.  They replied that they would be a few more minutes.  So i waited.  The internet crashed... annoyance, frustration... phew, okay it is back on.  The call is made, I answer. We greet each other for all of 20 seconds before the internet crashes again. WTF!! Okay, slight panic now – ‘Dude, get the internet working!!’ agreement to allocate me all the bandwidth for my call. Change the password, receive a call again, a few more words spoken before it crashes again... a sense of helplessness as I am unable to prevent the internet crashes, and it feels like my future is completely out of my hands.  Here is an opportunity to represent myself and my case for graduation and it is just slipping through my fingers.

I receive a message saying that they will decide my application based on the information that I had sent them, and that i would hear the results in July along with everyone else.... Panic, run to another internet place, back online, but the opportunity has passed.  The panel are now offline and i feel bereft, frustrated, disbelieving. How could it have turned out like this?  It just can’t be! But it is. That was it. My graduation interview, over in a matter of moments after so much energy and preparation was spent anticipating this time.  I am left feeling that I didn’t do enough, I ‘should have’ gone somewhere else – a sense of failure.

Now I have to wait until July for the graduation results.  I received a pass for my dissertation, I found that out upon my return from my trek, but whether i have actually graduated or not, only time will tell...